keep it together

so here it goes...

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 23:40:34 GMT

update:
got to college
best time of my life
freedom is amazing
started rushing
pledged alpha phi-love my deltas big and fam
great experience not something to be repeated though
found my college friends
smoked my days away
downtown every so often
crush
socials
boys ;-)
amazing times. amazing friends. amazing place.

i'm going home tomorrow woot woot! i miss my bestests!!

erica

days go by...

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 07:08:19 GMT

so much. so little. a little closer. a little farther. so almost everything has an opposite. when you realize the side you are on, you have to think, do i want to be on this side or the other side. and you decide and you are happy. if only it was that simple.

i'm really happy. classes aren't bad. doesn't even feel like school. i have amazing friends, absolutely amazing. i can't complain about my love life yet i can't brag either.

feels good to let a bit out.

erica<3

dedrater

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 04:54:35 GMT

so i leave for college in 3 and a half days or so. call, if you want to see me before i depart from cowack.

erica<3<3

hummm i wanna linger hummm a little longer

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 00:27:20 GMT

i'm home
i'm depressed
and it sucks

i love love love all of you that i had to leave, i miss you more than you will ever know.

hopefully my loves will cheer me up

say good bye lose your friends

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 18:27:40 GMT

goodbye commack
goodbye meraka
goodbye dave
goodbye commack kosher
goodbye bed
goodbye joeyyyyyyyyyy
goodbye highschool
goodbye carelessness
goodbyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

write to me:
Erica Fritzson
TRCR Cabin 25
Route 1, Box 470
Highview, WV 26808

send me packages, write me letters, come visit me (only a 7 hour drive tops)
don't forget me. i'll be back soon enough.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 10:18:55 GMT

fucking god damn i lost my wallet. if you find it pleeeeeeeease call my cell pronto! thanks

driving to wva in about 15 minutes. fucking sucks.

mr. yagaloff

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 03:51:09 GMT

my english teacher has been assigning worthwhile assignments lately, which i am grateful for. we were assigned, recently, to write a poem, telling it how it really is. about anything, just write something real. so i kinda did. i originally wrote a poem that day, but it was about a boy. and i am truthfully so disgustingly sick of writing poems about boys who have fucked with my head and heart. so i wrote this poem in 10th grade, and i felt it related to the topic we were given so i handed it in, as well as read it to the class, because that was also part of the assignment. it's a lengthy one, but i'm going to post it...

You have got to suppress the anger deep inside.
Nothing will ever be happy unless you are.
You have got to suppress the oppression the world breathes.
Nothing will ever be plentiful,
until you cultivate your outlook.
Use your hands to heal
and your mouth to touch.
Use the knowledge your ancestors instilled in you,
to interact with the arrogant and heartbroken.
You can learn to be selfish and superficial,
then you will be spoken about.
You are righteous and giving, then you will be rewarded.
For what you have surpassed in this world.
Where mother earth is used as a battlefield,
a thousand corpses strewn like pearls around her neck.
Where violent conflicts are resolved,
with hateful words and weapons the white man brought.
Our brothers and sisters slaughtered.
Our mothers and fathers annihilated.
You be the judge of how the world revolves,
Everything must have its purpose.
Are you the purpose?
Use your eyes to move,
and your ears to carry on words.
Use the culture your ancestors instilled in you,
to confront your demons and welcome your angel.
Use your lips and kiss your love,
use your fingers to embroider your destiny.
Get rid of black and white.
Make everything gray.
Why do we need to define each other?
Definition is overrated,
use your mind to change,
an uprising to this world.
Your greed for power will do you no good here.
Use your mind to prosper, and your words to enlighten.
Any day now we will all unite on earth,
as we diminish our eternal suffrage.
You’ve got to suppress the anger inside.
Our exodus out of this,
is the confrontation we must conquer.

if you like it, awesome. if you don't oh well.

<3<3erica

i say what i have to and i hold back the rest

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 01:49:49 GMT

today sucked.
yesterday kinda sucked.
the days better stop sucking.
because i leave in fucking 16 days for camp.
come back 2 days later.
leave 4 days after that to go back to camp.
i have very little time left in cowack, and i want to make the best out of the few days i have

taxiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Sat, 28 May 2005 16:30:26 GMT

last night, lucky cheng's, BES TIME EVER! fucking transvestites are the shit and so are fucking chip and dale guys. so we ate at lucky, poured vodka into a glass and took shots and chased it with our soda's. diondra was our waitress. "you're definitely an F.I.T" i'll let ya'll figure out what that stands for. every friday and saturday night, "savage men" are at lucky cheng's. it's this chip and dale's group. they are real men. really really hot men. the tix were $20 and oh how worth it, it was. seriously so much fun, now i can see why guys like strip clubs. this one guy was just so fucking fuckable, like completely gorgeous, insanely perfect body. it was much fun indeed, and it must be experienced again. i love the city.

erica<3<3

Thu, 26 May 2005 23:42:53 GMT

weeeeeeeeeeeeekend's gonna be sick.

i love writing poetry.

erica<3<3

Sun, 22 May 2005 21:48:57 GMT

this weekend was satisfying enough, i guess. friday was fun, would have been more fun if i didn't have an 11 oclock curfew. that should be over as of now. haven't spoken to pops yet, but i intend to. saturday night was nothing special. i did get to take out my dad's beeemerrr (bmw), which i have to say was pretty sweet. i still love the durango though. nothing exciting in my life at the moment. hopefully excitement will be coming my way very soon.

<3 erica

<3

Tue, 17 May 2005 02:24:16 GMT

i love love love love LOVE. i love singing in my room really really loud. i love making others feel good. i love my math class. i love kissing. i love my best friends so very much. i love little puppies. i love my job. i love lighting incense in my room and listening to jack johnson. i love making awesome mixes and than blasting them in the car. i love screaming my lungs out with joey to hellogoodbye and hot hot heat. i love my rainbows. i love my roommate(kara). i love that there are only 19 days of school left which is more like 12. i love the altering of seasons. i love you.

<3<3

me=amazing

Mon, 16 May 2005 21:29:44 GMT

i am so proud of myself and so happy. finally things are good in my life.

<3<3

hello sunshine

Fri, 13 May 2005 02:17:01 GMT

i had the best day. went out to breakfast with jackie, robyn, ali , annie, joey, and kristen. afterwards joey, kristen, jackie, and me went to joey's for a bit. than we played on the play ground. swung on swings, went on the teeter totter. kristen peed her pants. went to kristen's so she could change her pants, jumped on the trampoline and fell into joey a lot, while she changed. it was a blast. got to school middle of fourth, the rest of the day was nothing, went to photo with robby, slept in cit law, sat on my ass in gym and sang in chorus. it was so nice this morning. not even sunny, just calm and warm.

looooooooooooove
erica

Thu, 12 May 2005 02:51:58 GMT

god damn, why am i destined to be alone?

Thu, 12 May 2005 02:23:07 GMT

some people have no fucking decency. i am sooooooooooooooooo done.

today was joey's birthday. happy birthday to him. i love you.

i need someone in my life. it has no longer become a want. it doesn't have to be serious, just some emotional and physical action. mostly physical. haaaaaaa

i've been in a shitty mood lately and i need someone to get me out of it.

Fri, 06 May 2005 02:18:14 GMT

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
i hate everything

i wish that i could follow you...

Tue, 03 May 2005 02:41:05 GMT

tonight was a really good night. i realized i have GREAT friends. and i really mean that. i have sensationally fantabulous friends. a lot of funny stuff happened tonight. stupid to name because no one but the ones who were there would get it.

<3
erica

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 04:46:53 GMT

alyssa ehrlich's dream as a wee little girl, was to have the one and only erica fritzson type a journal entry from her house. her dream has finally come true. she is now happy and will live with a smile for always.

night 1 of passover

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 00:41:39 GMT

i'm in NJ at my uncle's. i'm obsessed with my baby cousin. he is by far the cutest two year old in the world. i taught him the peace sign and he's been running around the house with his two fingers up screaming peace. it's effin adorable. we had by far the most disfunctional seder i have ever witnessed. it's actually one of the first semi-full ones, i've been to in years and years. tomorrow night passover is at my house. oh joy. i'm tired and i need a cigarette.

<3erica

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 04:41:58 GMT

i realize how much i love and how much i hate. and i realized that i love way more than i hate. it's coming to be unhealthy i think. i'm nowhere near negative but i have this not so right feeling in my stomach right now. and i am completely rambling by the way. but i want to get out 5 million things at one time because my brain is crashing right now. thinking so many different ways, and not knowing which thought to just simply blurt out. i'm going to towson. i leave for camp sooner than i realize. prom is sooner than i realize. my life will soon be turning completely upside down, a lot faster than i could even consume. still there is something missing. i love my friends, my parents, my situation, so many aspects, i am content with but there is still, as there always has been, something missing. i've also realized that i have to put memories away for good. live my life for what it is and take advantage of that more than ever.

i'm done

<3erica

again, i miss joey...

everyday i love him just a little bit more...

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 03:26:23 GMT

CuTe xXx AnGeL: her name is kara
CuTe xXx AnGeL: that is so prety
fRiTzChiCk413: lol
CuTe xXx AnGeL: why do they have pretty names
CuTe xXx AnGeL: our names are like ordinary
fRiTzChiCk413: but we arent ordinary
CuTe xXx AnGeL: i know i guess what we lack in name we make up for in coolness
fRiTzChiCk413: exactly

i love this girl.

my week has been stress free, fun, and new.

me=happy and missing joey

<3

MY 18TH BIRTHDAY RULED!!!!!!!!!!!

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:43:48 GMT

i had the best birthday day today. haha left school after 5th to take my road test. I PASSED! thank the lord almighty for that. so i drove around visiting my friends at their places of business than went to work myself. worked for 2 hours, felt like 20 minutes. drove annie home, than drove her to work. came home, did nothing. picked all of my lovely friends up. which included...robyn, joey, ali, annie, michelle, and katie. went to mandolino's for din din. than drove everyone home. i was like a bus driver, especially in the huge ass car i was driving. and i might have had a few (no more than 7) acquantinces with the curb but it's all good cuz my car is pretty ginormous. i just had the bestest day and i got to spend it with the people i love more than anything. thank you to everyone who made this day as great as it was<3

<3erica

an udpate has been well needed

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 05:09:01 GMT

a lot has gone on in the past week or so of my life. i experienced my very last convention and received a bit of a surprise on that weekend as well, cried my eyes out, and learned a lot about others and myself. as well i was sick for two weeks, my pediatrician (yes i still go to one) believes it to be a sinus infection so put me on augmentin and cough medicine w/codine. i also visited towson on friday, the place i will be attending next year. i bumped into scott siegel, and lindsey my boss's daughter, who i was planning on calling anyway. i really like it. yet i have not given up hope on UMD. i think both schools are a perfect fit for me, mainly because they are both in maryland and i can't help but love it. this weekend has been much fun. and my birthday is in 1 days and the tbs concert is in 2...i'm very satisfied with my life in this point and time.

<3<3<3erica

p.s. i love youuuuuuuuu

p.p.s. "stop blowing smoke in my face...YOU HOMELESS MAN!"

p.p.p.s. happy 18 years 3 months and 28 days birthday, annie kalker

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 22:30:16 GMT

oh yeah there's a ginormous pine tree lying across my front lawn. damn rain and wind.